AM I WHAT THEY SAY I AM?

THAT OLD WOUND      

Dealing with the harsh words people say to you isn’t easy. They tell you how much of something you are, they tell you that you aren’t good enough for this and that, they tell you that you the odd one out.

It all started when I was in grade 8, my 1^st year in BHS. I had some great friends, that’s what I thought actually. One day during study they were doing their LO homework, they ran into a chapter talking about homosexual people. One of them showed me n said “look at this, you gay as well” then they all laughed. Sure I was hurt and all but I never really took it to mind.

In grade 9, I remember Maxine calling me “teef” which means female dog, she meant I was homosexual.

Then when I was in grade 10, it started again, one time in the LO class, we were doing something about different people. I remember we sat 6 in a table, when one learner was reading, she read something about gay people. Again they looked at me and laughed.  It happened again in the English class when Ms Van Zyl asked who in the class was a homo person, they all screamed out my name.

2012, I had a friend; this ex friend of mine which I won’t mention his name; people also thought that he was gay. Now because we were friends people started saying that we lovers and stuff. It was really harsh, and it led to us not being friend just to avoid the critics.

There was this other time whereby I got anonymous multimedia messages, there were two guys having sex with each other. 

  

I asked myself questions; do I really look or act gay, what have I done for this people to perceive me this way. Yet there was no prevail to all that questions. Sure I thought I was ok about it, it’s just people being people. But one day I just had enough, I wrote an attack, thinking that this would make me feel better. Sure it did but for only that moment. What it did was just cover the wound, it didn’t heal it. Then that day came when the wound was reopened, for that time I was calm and collected but when I got to my room, it was a different story. I sat on my bed and thought about, at that very moment I started crying…that old wound was open again. I thank God that it was opened, because now this is an opportunity for me to properly deal with it.

Now I’m sure you wondering if I am homo or not, well I don’t have to explain to anyone how I am. Just know that I am me, me who cares not no more what people think of, me who strives to stick out, me who has gone against all odds, me who won’t let words bring me down, me who has done it all, me who me I proclaim to be me, me who is son of JOY LETLONKANE and SCREAMER PHUKUNTSI, me MOPHIRING, but best of all me who is son of GOD and liveth for GOD, me who loves JESUS CHRIST.

WORDS OF ADVICE: as hard as it may be, don’t live your life to what people see it to be, don’t let people tell you who you are… Remember you are what you believe you are, don’t make the same mistake I did, by not dealing with your problems and letting people’s words get to you.

THANKS FOR READING. GOD BLESS U

  

TOP 1O HOTTIES OF OUR HOSTEL

The top 10 beautiful girls of boshof hostel!!!!!!

Here we recognize those who are given with beauty. Those who call upon eye to view their statue. It wasn’t easy choosing them and if you didn’t make it, it doesn’t mean you grotesque

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Number 10: Katlego poeng and Ayanda Nkebetwane

 Number 9 :  Moratimang Khoza

Number 8:  Goboitumelo Leburu

Number 7:  Masedi Moshe

Number 6:  Tshenolo and Masego Wesi

A lot of debate, thinking and time was but into determining the top 5. But after all that we agreed upon the following:

Number 5:  Refiloe Moreki and Ponde

Number 4:  Rethabile (waga kraai) and Prudence

Number 3:  Mmabatho mokodue

Number 2: Maleshoane Setai

Number 1: Tiro Tshekedi

THIS WAS COMPILED BY A PANEL OF PEOPLE WITH DIFFERENT VIEWS AND OPINIONS. IF YOU DO NOT AGREE WITH THIS, DON'T HESITATE TO MAKE YOUR VOICE HEARD.

HOW TO BREAK THEM UP

MANY OF US SEE THOSE WE LOVE FALL INLOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. ALL DAY U THINK ABOUT BREAKING THEM UP, BUT U DON’T KNOW HOW TO. STRESS NO MORE BECAUSE I'M NOW SHARING WITH U HOW TO BREAK UP THAT PERFECT COUPLE.

1. Take a moment to consider the risks in trying to break up a couple.

• If the couple catches on, overcoming this issue might make their relationship stronger, and they might decide to not associate with you anymore.
• If you're breaking up a couple so you can be with one of the people involved, and you succeed, you might always be paranoid that your new relationship will be susceptible to these tactics. If this person allowed their previous relationship to be pulled apart by someone else, what makes you think your relationship will be any less vulnerable?
• If the break up is caused by an outside force (you) the couple might lack closure, and still harbor feelings for each other which might grow stronger over time. In other words, they might always regret having let the other person go, and have a hard time dedicating themselves fully to new relationships.

Enacting Your Break Up Plan

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Learn everything you can about the couple. You don't want to actually become intimate friends with them. This will arouse jealousy and suspicion. Instead, become friends with their friends. In this way, you might learn personal details about the couple that will work to your advantage (and their disadvantage).

• Social networking profiles can also reveal a lot about a couple. A distressed status update, for example, might tell you there's trouble in paradise. Overall, you're looking for some weakness in the relationship that you can exploit. What do they argue about often? Are they jealous? Money? Do they have commitment issues?
• The extent to which you want to invade someone's privacy depends on your own ethics. Are you comfortable snooping through the couple's belongings? Will you scroll through their phone messages? Can you access their email accounts?
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Subtly play on the couple's weaknesses. This will depend on what the issue is, of course, but the idea is to rock the boat and see if it sinks. Here are some examples:

• Introduce the couple to people who will make one or both partners jealous. If one of the people in the relationship still has feelings for an ex, for instance, try bringing that ex back into the picture somehow. Invite the ex to a place where the couple will be and see what happens.
• If one person in the relationship wants to get married and the other is reluctant, find ways to bring up the subject of marriage. Talk about your parents' anniversary, invite them to an engagement party, even send them a diamond ring catalog through the mail.
• Not all couples share the same hobbies and interests. If this is the case, try to encourage them to pursue these hobbies separately. The more time a couple spends apart, the more susceptible they are to outside influences. The man might enjoy watching football games at a sports bar, for example. And the woman might prefer to spend her time jogging in the park. Each of these pursuits presents an opportunity for subterfuge.

Fake Texts- if you want to break up a couple because you want to go out with the boy/girl then you need to add any number like 123 or something and add it to your contacts list on your phone then you will write fake texts to yourself under their name and then show the person out of the couple that you want to go out with which will make them want to break up with the other person.

Edit Tips

• It's important that you yourself don't get identified as the dividing force, or else you will be resented and mistrusted.
  
• If a relationship is already falling apart, it'll fall apart without any help. Consequently, you might not have to do anything.
• If you are friends with the couple you are breaking up, you will be forced into a secret relationship.
• You have to hang out with one of them (never the other). Make sure you always bust in to their conversations! Never let them talk to each other alone. Always text one of them so they won't be able to talk to the other.

Edit Warnings

• Be careful not to get caught in the middle of a lover's quarrel.
• It's extremely hard to break up a couple that has just gotten together and is still in the honeymoon phase.
  
• If you are doing the last step be careful that nobody finds out that you are doing this, be careful that you don't get caught doing the last step.

This might be considered morally wrong

deeper shades

SUNDAY DIRTIES

JUST THAT ONE

THAT SIMPLE SMILE

THE DANGER OUR WORLD IS IN

THE DISEASE                                       NOTE:ONLY APPLICABLE TO MALES

a very abudant disease is amongst us. A didease that has affected minority but its effects are of priority.

Only a few have been able to identify this tanatious disease, so many ask "What is this disease you talk about?" "What are its effects?" "Who has it affected?" "How does it affect one?"

Mhm!!! Tempting isnt it? I shall not reveal this disease yet,but I shall substanciate apon. I hope you are flabbergasted as I begin.

EFFECTS OF THE DISEASE

·      you start watching soapies (over recommended dose)

·      starting hanging out with the female version

·      start not to do men's stuff i.e looking at female bodies and talking about ass

·      voicde becomes soft

·      start blushing to the male version

·      in to fashion (over daily limit)

·      engage in touching with the male version

·      having mood swings

·      being cozy with male versions  

This effects are only when you are on the HIV state version of this disease. We are getting close to knowing this hard striking s disease.

The disease has a cure but only when you still on the HIV state version.

HOMOSEXUALITY

To those infected:

·      beat them up in to real men

·      show them erocity

·      make them love female bodies instead of male bodies

·      pray for them

THIS STATE THERE IS NO CURE.

EFFECTS OF AIDS VERSION

·      smile when see male private parts

·      disgused by nudity of females

·      female gustures

·      turned on by male nudity

·      whatch gay porn

·      seeking male obsession

·      like spanking male ass

·      saying homosexual comments/statement

A few around us walk with this disease and may still show none of this effects, but key is denial.

use this information to spot out those infected as this disease can easily spread.

THE NEXT VERSION OF THIS STUDY ON THE DISEASE SHALL COME IN DUE COURSE